As The World Celebrates New Year’s, Some Of Us Fight A Battle With Loneliness. This one’s for you

Loneliness, It’s one of those words in the English language that everyone knows the meaning of but takes a whole lot of pain to understand.

Loneliness isn’t an emotion, it’s a constant struggle to keep your chin held up, to not give in to the emptiness of life, to be devastated yet be alive. Loneliness is a struggle that you can’t understand by reading an article.

Why am I talking about loneliness on the first day of a new year?

Because for someone out there, the festive spirit of anything is synonymous with empty hostel dorms.

Some will find refuge in the company of stray animals, others will find themselves lurking on the internet for the slightest hint of a company.

And then, there will be some who would be just as lonely even in the company of others. Those who have been victims of anxiety and insecurity. Those who have been alienated for way too long to be comfortable in a social situation.

Yes, any event is a joyful time. If you’re not unfortunate enough to be lonely during the most festive time of the year.

If you are, every word written here will ring close to your heart.

The walls, the windows, the lit up streets, the sound of firecrackers.. everything around you will replicate just how you feel and your surroundings will feel gloomier than usual.

Memories of friends will haunt you as you scroll down your Facebook newsfeed. A phone call with the family will require you to sound stronger happier.

And when there are no more phone calls left, you soon begin to realize that it’s okay to cry, to let it all out, to finally express how you feel while hoping this will loosen you up and make you feel lighter.

But it won’t.

This emotional void transcends into physical pain. A lump of sorrow begins to grow in your throat.

Social media agitates the very agony it was supposed to put out.

When you’re done exuding hatred and blame on others for your lonely self, you might just see a light at the end of your suffering. It won’t be the comfort of someone else’s company, neither will it be the end of your pain. It will just be your acceptance of yourself.

Once you make your peace with being with yourself on a festival, you’ll find unrequited belonging in this pain. The hurt of being alone will become your strength. You will grow fonder of yourself.

You will be free.

No longer will you be a slave to someone else’s presence to make you happy. No longer will you give others precedence over yourself.

This place right here, is called the rebirth of your self-esteem. The realization that being alone doesn’t have to mean being sad.

You will continue to be all by yourself but it will no longer be a cause of suffering to you. Instead, you will see this as an opportunity to do anything you want without the insecurity of being judged.

Doing just about anything you want.

Whether that entails dancing to loud music in your room, feeling the liberation of roaming around naked, walking the brightly lit roads and observing people from the outside or just writing down every random thought that has occupied the insides of your mind.

You can do all of this and much much more.

BECAUSE RIGHT NOW, YOU ARE FREE.





Source:Being Indian

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